The quiet mouse

I took this picture a few months ago. Well like March of this year.

I’m a Halo fan. I’m really disappointed that the show got cancelled. I hope it gets picked up by another network and gets back to tv again.

I hope it doesn’t disappear like the show Touching Evil that aired in 2004. I was out of state at the time and was counting down until season 2 came out. We didn’t have cable in the house only antenna. It sucked not getting to watch it. It originally was a British show that was remade here in the states. Yes I refer to us as in the states. Some of my closest friends live in Europe. I lived out of state with them for a year and came home with a pretty cool accent. I did visit them for 2 weeks in 2010 and came home with the accent again.

Strong Christian friends too. One of the hardest things about coming home was that I didn’t want to come home. I was safe. I wasn’t going to get gaslighted or be made to ask permission for little things. I had learned how to stop apologizing for things that really didn’t need apologizing for.

I came home and felt so lost. Like really lost. I lost my 3 best friends who had returned to different parts of Europe. I lost the group of friends we ran around with several times a week. I lost the independence that I had found. I left mentors, friends and family and I hated it.

I can still tell you when the chains got shackled back on. It was 2 weeks of being home.

I tried to find a youth group that I could go to with people my age. The one I started to go to was not very welcoming and it was a local church. Years later I found out that that specific group had a reputation for doing that to new people. It was super frustrating so I just reluctantly went back to my shell.