The quiet mouse

I’ve been listening to hymns in the evening before I go to bed. If I remember.

Ive been on an amazing journey with God lately. I quit my job a month ago and have found something amazing to replace it.

I kicked butt on applying for jobs. I applied to over 70 places. I had 6 or 7 interviews.

Me getting this job is all God’s doing. I give him all the credit for it.

I know he was the one that let me feel completely at peace about leaving my previous job. There is no other way to explain it.

I know if I start going back to church and taking my girls I will definitely get some heat from my husband for it and his family. His idea is that there’s other things we can be doing while was at church.

I need to start breaking these icy cold walls that are around me that he built. I have to break out of the isolation and get back to where I need to be.

I lost friends when I married my husband. Those friends saw red flags that I didn’t see and tried to warn me. They walked away when I didn’t listen to them.

I hope and pray that God helps me through this next journey.

I’m seriously considering divorcing him and being a single mom.

I really need a good strong Christian husband who isn’t going to abuse me mentally, physically and emotionally.

I want hugs. I want encouragement. I want a mother in law who cheers me on instead of tearing me down for how I parent.

I know God is laying the groundwork for something amazing. I just don’t know yet.

I want a husband who is willing to read the Bible with me. I want to do family devotions.

I don’t want to feel like I have to jump through hoops to get what I want and to find out the goal post has moved.

So please if you are reading this pray for me. If you have pieced the puzzle together and know who I am just hug me, text me some encouragement.

If you know who I am and want to be bold come hang out with me and my girls.