The quiet mouse

Well, he did it. He found a way to ruin and destroy something I liked and was enjoying.

The honest truth. I told him that I was having an emotional affair with a friend. I was enjoying it honestly. The guy had been one of my best friends in college and had never tried to hurt me on purpose.

It was safe and I didn’t have to give up anything sexual. I never felt dirty or had my dignity compromised.

My friend is a very private person and just doesn’t shovel out personal facts like candy.

So my husband decided that being a private person was a red flag. That actually going no contact with family was a red flag.

I told my friend about what my husband was saying and he decided that we needed to stop what we were doing so I wouldn’t get hurt.

Get hurt? I already am. I have feelings for him that I told him he couldn’t have for me.

He knows how I feel. I was brutally honest about it with him.

Im pissed at my husband for finding a way to ruin something I was enjoying yet again.

I felt sexy, I felt confident. I felt amazing. I somehow have to figure out how to hold onto those feelings and not let them disappear.

Ya a mountain I have to traverse.

I told my husband we need couples counseling.