The quiet mouse

This sucks. It really does.

I started talking to an old friend from college. I honestly felt we became good friends. I fell for him quietly all over again.

We decided to take a break from our friendship because of the issues in my own marriage.

He literally disappeared. Literally. It’s like he was never there. So now I’m grieving losing him as a friend twice. Twice.

I know he’ll come back out of whatever darkness he’s in. Honestly I don’t know if I can handle knowing that he could disappear again.

I know he is struggling with some things right now but I really thought i was a bright spot in his day. I realize now that is not the case. I never really was a bright spot for him. It hurts and stings.

It sucks that I have to grieve a friendship again.

I will let him know when my drama is over. I don’t know if he’ll come back. I hope he does. I really do.

If he ever found this blog I don’t know what I would say.