I decided today that I’m going to probably close my business. I’m starting a new job and I really want to refocus on things.
I’ve been doing a lot of praying. I honestly feel like God is saying to let it go. There’s someone out there who will need what I have in my store.
My husband doesn’t like the idea of me just giving it away and closing it.
I’m not even going to try and get him to understand that God is telling me to do this. That there’s something else coming my way.
Before I quit my retail job I had a customer tell me to read the book of James.
I found my Bible and have started with James.
The first thing that popped in my mind was who are my tribe?
Who can I talk about this with? Who isn’t going to make fun of me or try to distort things. So I started a list of people I know I can trust to talk about the scriptures with. People who aren’t going to tell me I have other things I can do with my time.
I honestly believe that God is pressing on my heart. He’s speaking to me.
I really want to be a strong Christian woman and mother.
I want Satan to say “shit she’s awake”.
That’s the kind of person I want to become .
My devotional comes tomorrow. I’ve got a notebook and hymnals to help me. I’ve got my Bible to look up and delve deeper into God’s word.
I just wish a lot of things right now. I have a prayer list that’s really long. Honestly I see God answering my prayers just the way He’s meant too.
Please pray for me as I do this. I need to stay strong.
I’m going to have to have my time with God after my husband goes to work. If I try anytime else he’s going to tell me that there’s other things I can be doing with my time.
So please please pray for me.