The quiet mouse

We are on our 2nd run of the Garfield movie today.

I just watched the cat try and fish a package of ramen out of the bulk package. She failed.

The pantry door is open so that means she was in it.

Chocolate milk is popular today.

I emailed a friend some questions that have been on my mind. I emailed him knowing that he will be honest in his answers and won’t try to divert to something else.

I have 2 stuffed animals that need hand sewn now. Self threading needles are not my friend.

I ordered a devotional book that will get devoured.

Im getting a lot done today.

I actually feel confident about myself for once.

He’s in bed so I feel like I can breathe.

I have a sewing machine project that I need to finish.

last night I couldn’t sleep. I have had some things on my heart.

A book that I had gotten in voluntary service. I couldn’t find it. I knew the author so I ordered a new one. My heart is saying I need to read it again.

I feel in my heart that I have to go back to the roots of my faith

What is my faith rooted in. Where do I stand with it.

My faith has been getting deeper and stronger the past few months.

The more I’m pushed and pulled around the more I’m finding myself digging my feet into God and his promises.

He’s so faithful and loving. He’s not judging me for how I keep my house. He doesn’t care that I’m uncoordinated. He loves me for me. I might be a messy unorganized person but I have a God who loves that about me. He loves me. He doesn’t criticize me and bring me down with vitriol.

He loves the fact I’m a mom.

He loves all my faults and short comings.

This is my amazing God.

He loves me.

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Today is going to be amazing.

God has an amazing plan for today.

Remember that you are amazing and are loved beyond measure.

God made you just the way you are.

Don’t ever give up. God is always there.

His promises are forever and his faithfulness is greater than we can ever imagine.

God loves you.

During voluntary service I lived with 2 girls from Germany and 1 from Canada. We also had unit leaders who were from Indiana but had spent time in Kansas.

So our range of accents was pretty good. Even though I was from Ohio I had an accent.

Today I found out Ohio is a state with an accent.

I spent a year in Indiana. I came home with a different accent.

I still have an accent today but it’s mostly just my normal one. I’m deaf in one ear so I hear things differently. I also speak a bit differently because of my hearing.

It really doesn’t bother me. Honestly I can’t wait to see my friends from Europe again. I miss hearing them talk.

I miss alot of things these days.

I really miss my dad. He would be thrilled with my girls.

He would be ecstatic about my new job. Oh how I wish I could call and tell him about it. I know I’m going to want to call and tell him about the parts and what I learned each day. Oh and the farm machinery. I’m a country girl who married a city boy.

My goal is to be amazing at my job. My dad would be proud of that.

For the friends and family who know about this blog.

This is me letting it all out.

This is me being honest.

This is me being brave.

This whole blog might come back to smack me in the head.

This is me saying I’m sorry for not telling you the truth.

This is me saying I want something better.

This is me trying to reclaim what was lost.

This is me jumping with both feet in the water.

This is me being afraid, brave, nervous and overwhelmed all at the same time.

This is me shouting to be heard.

So hug me, hold me and let me cry.

Cheer me on and shout to keep going.

Encourage you to hold me eye up.

Help me stay focused on God and not lose my faith again.

Tomorrow is a new day. It’s also Monday. How many of us are not thrilled with the idea of going back to work or getting up early. I bet a lot of us are.

Today might not have gone as planned. You might not have gotten everything done you wanted.

You might have been overwhelmed or over stimulated by kids, noises or just plain family.

Take a deep breath.

Tomorrow is new. Tomorrow is going to amazing.

Everyday God’s mercies are new.

Great is his faithfulness.

God is good all the time!

I’m not sure what to say. Today has been a day.

It rained. It hailed but not here.

Ive been climbed on and hugged and kissed.

Ive had to put my kids in time out.

I took a nap while they were next door.

I’ve praised God for the new job all day.

I couldn’t contain my joy over what God has done and emailed a friend all about it. I’m not expecting a reply back.

Im just hoping that they read it and get encouraged by what God can do.

God can move mountains.

God is good all the time!!

This tumbler is amazing. My sister got it for me for my birthday.

I put cold water in it this morning and it’s still cold!!!

Now if only I had a green one to take with me to my new job.

We are picking up the girls from next door at 4:30

Its now 4:15

You need to finish that pizza before the girls come home.

I just pulled a French bread pizza out of the air fryer

me: don’t rush me with my food

Hubs: I’m not rushing you I’m trying to keep you focused.

me: It still needs to cool yet for me to eat it.

hubs: You have 5 minutes to let it cool and then 10 minutes to eat it.

me: you know normal married people don’t give their spouses a time limit to eat their food.

hubs: normal people don’t need to stay focused like you do. I’m just trying to help you.

Me: I walk away with my food to blog while it cools.

Do other married couples do this with their spouses? I honestly admit that I have a short attention span.

Him trying to manage my time that I get to eat.

It’s not normal.

I hate weekends. I hate having him home. Everything I do gets rearranged to fit into how he wants it done.

Thirteen years of this. I hope and pray that God releases me from this marriage. I prayed about quitting my cashier job and I found a peace and calmness that was amazing. I wasn’t anxious about it I wasn’t worried. I wasn’t filled with anxiety over it. It was an amazing feeling.

I want that feeling from God again. Only He could have let me feel like that.